My little sister learned to ride a bike the day of my 8th birthday party. I recall watching her cruise on a bike a little too big for her up and down the street and how excited she was. It’s an odd childhood memory simply because I don’t have many of them. I don’t remember the names of all my teachers, where I was on some historical day, or when I first learned the truth about ALF. I don’t think I’m blocking anything out; I’m probably just too mentally lazy to store all the memories. It’s also odd because it should really be her memory, not mine. In fact, the only reason I have managed to keep it top of mind all these years is likely because I can’t remember much else that happened that day. And, somewhere deep inside I’m pissed that she enjoyed my birthday more than I did.
Eight is a confusing age for a kid growing up with Mormon parents. It is the age where you get baptized. You’re not really sure why, you just know that if you don’t there won’t be enough years left in your life for the threat of being grounded to mean anything. You go along with it because you’re convinced it’s the right thing to do. That’s how you make decisions at that age. What’s right versus what’s wrong versus how much can I get away with. Religion is a topic for another day… another really long day. Let me just say this though… the birthday presents suck when they’re also baptism presents. No kid truly wants a Bible for their 8th birthday.
Fortunately, I got more than my own scriptures that day. I also got this (enter sarcasm font) fantastic book called ‘All About Me’. This is like a journal for beginners with predetermined topic pages and such. You get to fill in your favorite color and school subject. You write about your family and friends. Then, as a 10 year old you get to go back and read it and want to kick your own ass for being such a dork. Now that you’re a much cooler skater (poser) you can’t believe how lame you were just two short years ago.
Fast forward nearly 25 years. I’m embarking on a new project where I tell my friends and family what’s going on in my life. I share my thoughts and feelings and preserve them for my sons to read some day. I’m a 32 year old working in marketing (poser), going back to school (where my favorite subject is no longer math), and trying to make the best of things. I’m less concerned with what I’ll think about myself when I read this two years down the line because I’m much more self aware now than I was then. I already know I’m not the coolest, richest, funniest, or smartest kid on the block. I know my kids will think I’m a nerd for the rest of my life and I’m certain my wife is the one confirming their assumptions. The best part though, is that I don’t care. I’m happy with where I am, who I’m with, and what I’m doing.
So who am I? Where am I in this game called life? Who am I with and what are we doing? These are questions I’ll attempt to answer in my blog posts. If you read enough of them you might start to gain some insight. If you don’t, well, you’re going to miss out. After all, this section is All About Me.